This is me.... Raw Me... I wanted to start a blog to just be honest and open about myself and things that I want to change. I have come so far in my walk with Christ, since becoming a Christian, but I fault in many areas. I want to change and I want to be like Christ to the fullest. This is my Blogging journey where I'm starting to become a better Christ-like me! :) ... I'm excited to start :).....
In starting I have to first lay out my faults... Right? … Confess? ... Well I think so... I can't name them all in this post, but I'll give the BIG ones.... This is intimidating and scary putting this all out there for everyone to see, but if I don't then how can I change? With laying out my faults I can be held more accountable. . .
Ok.... So I’ll start . . . There are so many things I struggle with daily, first and foremost something that has always been a struggle for me is respecting my mom. Since my parents have gotten their divorce, I have been bitter and mean to her and disrespectful at times. I have been selfish and felt mistreated by her. I definitely have not always shown her the same love Christ has shown me when I've hurt Him. I'll see myself being disrespectful sometimes and still keep being the way I am even with the little voice inside telling me to stop :/. Thank goodness for the Holy Spirit I'm glad I feel guilt because it shows me how un-Christ-like I can be and convicts me and shows me where I need to change. I just need to start acting on fixing things and not just "knowing" or being convicted about doing them. .... Another area I have struggled with is guys :/. Just finding my self-worth in them and whether or not someone likes me. I need to be content though and happy with just God and me before I can be happy with a guy and God. I do feel more at peace with this whole situation, though, but I’m still a work in progress. Also in not fooling myself with guys and trying to think someone is the right guy when everything the Bible says about who I should be with (a Christian and Godly Leader) is not what that guy is lol (I did that for a looooooooooong time). With guys comes the worry also that I won’t find "that" guy. “That” guy being the good guy that is in love with God first and is truly striving after Him and is a guy that wants me also. I struggle with thinking all the time that no one will want me in that way also another big thing I struggle with all the time is my body image and the way I look and not ever feeling good enough. Being 'New Again' not only includes a new me in a spiritual way but also physically. I want to feel good about myself in every area and be the best me that I can because I know God wants my best. In all things I want to give Him the best. I know I’ll struggle. I know I’ll fall. I know I’ll mess up. But I am going to give Him my all and get back up every time I fall with His help and press onward to be more like Him! Challenge me those who know me. Help me in sharing more of Him through me. Help me to be the Best I can be and let His light shine through me! In every area of my life I want Him to be seen and Him to lead. . .
Proverbs 16:9- "In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines His steps"
Proverbs 3:5-6
Ok.... So I’ll start . . . There are so many things I struggle with daily, first and foremost something that has always been a struggle for me is respecting my mom. Since my parents have gotten their divorce, I have been bitter and mean to her and disrespectful at times. I have been selfish and felt mistreated by her. I definitely have not always shown her the same love Christ has shown me when I've hurt Him. I'll see myself being disrespectful sometimes and still keep being the way I am even with the little voice inside telling me to stop :/. Thank goodness for the Holy Spirit I'm glad I feel guilt because it shows me how un-Christ-like I can be and convicts me and shows me where I need to change. I just need to start acting on fixing things and not just "knowing" or being convicted about doing them. .... Another area I have struggled with is guys :/. Just finding my self-worth in them and whether or not someone likes me. I need to be content though and happy with just God and me before I can be happy with a guy and God. I do feel more at peace with this whole situation, though, but I’m still a work in progress. Also in not fooling myself with guys and trying to think someone is the right guy when everything the Bible says about who I should be with (a Christian and Godly Leader) is not what that guy is lol (I did that for a looooooooooong time). With guys comes the worry also that I won’t find "that" guy. “That” guy being the good guy that is in love with God first and is truly striving after Him and is a guy that wants me also. I struggle with thinking all the time that no one will want me in that way also another big thing I struggle with all the time is my body image and the way I look and not ever feeling good enough. Being 'New Again' not only includes a new me in a spiritual way but also physically. I want to feel good about myself in every area and be the best me that I can because I know God wants my best. In all things I want to give Him the best. I know I’ll struggle. I know I’ll fall. I know I’ll mess up. But I am going to give Him my all and get back up every time I fall with His help and press onward to be more like Him! Challenge me those who know me. Help me in sharing more of Him through me. Help me to be the Best I can be and let His light shine through me! In every area of my life I want Him to be seen and Him to lead. . .
Proverbs 16:9- "In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines His steps"
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
I'll challenge you if you promise to keep challenging me.
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