Lonely/ Empty

Do you ever feel really alone? I know I do. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone, even though I know I have all these people in my life that love me and are here for me, I do feel so alone at times.  And sometimes I just want to give into my stupid desires and what I want and want to ignore what God wants and what I know is right. I guess that's the devil's way of getting to me cause when I start to feel alone I only have bad and sad thoughts and go into a depression/pity party type mode. It's not like this happens often but part of yesterday and today I was feeling this way. I did all I could to try and avoid my feelings, to avoid that emptiness and loneliness. Last night I watched like 4 different movies just to ignore what I was thinking and feeling then I think my whole day started off bad today because I didn't go to church, always a bad decision. Then I slept most of the day. I woke up around 2:30pm only to come downstairs and lay on the couch and fall asleep again till 4:30pm. Then I decided I couldn't just let myself lay around, so I got up and went for a drive. I drove all around. I explored the cities around me and just listened to Christian Music and talked with God. Then I came home and got my Bible out and went on the deck and started reading. It's amazing how just picking up God's Word can change how I feel completely! All day I tried to avoid my lonely/empty feelings by sleeping it away, or yesterday just watching movies to ignore my feelings and then once I stopped and started talking to God and reading His Word I felt the loneliness go away and I felt filled up instead of empty. Why had I not done this from the beginning of those feelings? I don't know. I forget how BIG my God is sometimes and how He is the only thing that can complete me..... Sorry Lord.... Help me to remember You always and not let my feelings or other things take over my attitude or actions! Amen!

  

Psalm 55:22~

 ²² Cast your cares on the LORD
   and he will sustain you;
he will never let
   the righteous be shaken. 

Psalm 94:18-19~

¹⁸ When I said, “My foot is slipping,”
   your unfailing love, LORD, supported me.
¹⁹ When anxiety was great within me,
   your consolation brought me joy.